for once, i'd like to make my own decisions,

for once, i'd like to forego the emotional blackmail,

the threats,

the insults,

the put-me-downs.

the "come on, be more REALISTIC"s

the "who do you think you are?"s

the "stop dreaming, you won't make it"s

the "don't you dare"s

and be able to breathe,

to make my own mistakes,

to make my own life out of it...

Perhaps then i won't feel so trapped,

as though struggling against the tide,

as though being chucked into the deep end of a swimming pool,

when i don't even know how to swim...

p/s: i don't care what she says, this is MY LIFE.