I lost the Public speaking competition today... the Star-Hsbc one...

i didn't even get into the semi-finals...

but one weird thing, not only was i not dissapointed, i was actually happy.

this is not a sign of someone who lost and trying desperately to maintain their composure, rather, i was happy because, for once, i felt that i lost to people that were REALLY good... like the chinese saying, "xin fu kou fu".

trying the competiton today was a really eye-opening and humbling experience. These people were REALLY GOOD. not that i'm saying everyone of the contestants who got into the semifinals were great (actually some were pretty bad, makes me a bit embarassed to have lost to them) but some of them were so talented, that somehow losing to them didn't seem that painful.

Hui fen was right, the prelims is definitely something i should not have tried to chicken out of. so what if i didn't get in, the 10 dollars i paid for the prelims was definitely more worthwhile than the 20 i paid for the workshop.

i learnt sooo many things today that i didn't even KNOW during the workshop. and if i do decide to join again next year, or the year after (since i only turn 20 in august)i will be much better prepared...

as much as i hate to admit this, maybe that girl Sabella was right, u di learn much more from ur failures than ur triumphs.. doesn't mean i think failing has anything to do with "A storm in a teacup" though... :P